Lately, I find the phrase “In my former life, I was a musician” coming out of my mouth more and more often, and unfortunately it’s true.  These days, you’re far more likely to find me at the podium at an event instead of behind the piano.

But even though my life is not filled up with choir rehearsals and piano students anymore, music is still a huge part of my life.  Chances are if you walk into my office at almost any given time, iTunes is working through one of a variety of playlists.  Yesterday found me scrubbing showers and vacuuming with ear buds in, listening to some new downloads.

There’s just something about music.  Something that just connects so deeply with my soul – especially worship music.

I have been blessed to have grown up in the church – I have spent my entire life walking with God.  So, by now I should have a handle on this whole Christian walk thing, right?

Not. Even. Close.

Confession time.  One area that I truly struggle with is spending time in God’s word.  I struggle with making the time, and when I do read, I find myself skimming over the chapters, just because I should.

But God’s words put to music?  Life-breathing.  His truths put to song?  Brings me such joy.

I was recently introduced to a song that has truly touched me.  It’s from a band I’d never heard of, and I don’t think I know any of their other music.  But just take a minute and listen…

Just take a moment and revel in that.

And He came running, opening up His arms, “Welcome home, my child”, I heard Him say –  “Welcome Home”.

Revelations 21:4 tells us  He will wipe every tear from their eyes, and there will be no more death or sorrow or crying or pain. All these things are gone forever.” (NLT)

This verse brings me to tears every time – the thought of it is overwhelming.  No more tears…. no more sorrow.  Oh, Lord – I cannot wait.

I am at a point in life where I am truly just weary.  There is no other word – tired, exhausted, stressed – none of those words fit how I feel.  I am just weary.  Physically, emotionally, spiritually weary.  And I want to go home.

I don’t write this for sympathy or for attention.  I write this because I think there are so many who feel exactly the same way.  None of us have the same journey here on earth, but we are all wired the same way – we’re homesick.  This earth is not our home, we’re just visiting and we want to go home.

God has been so good to me in placing strong, godly women on my path to walk this journey of life with me.  We’re all on the same journey, and it’s so good to have company.

In conversation the other day with one such friend, we were talking about how busy life is, about all the crazy going on, and how really, we’re just here doing time, right?  Doing time while we’re waiting to go home.

But, as our conversation continued, we were able to remind each other that it’s so much more than just doing time – we’re called to live life and live it abundantly!

This week I was able to spend some valuable time with a unique group of women – women who have answered God’s call on their lives to serve in pregnancy care centres.  As we sat around the table, we quickly came to realize a common theme – we are all weary.  Whether it was in our centres or in our personal lives, everyone had felt the attacks of the evil one.

But once again, I walked away encouraged, knowing that even in all of this, there is joy.  Knowing that through everything going on in our world, God is in control – none of this is a surprise to Him.

So we have hope.  We know the ending to the story.  But still life is so heavy.

We live in a world full of evil and hatred, disappointment and devastation.  As I write this, my Facebook feed is full of posts regarding the 50 people that lost their lives in Orlando last night – 50 families will never be the same.

And those are not the only ones who lost their lives last night – families all over the world woke up this morning missing a family member.  It’s that way every morning – every morning people wake up to the reality of death and pain and suffering.

There is so much pain in the world, and it is so easy to be discouraged. But this is where those words from Revelations 21 are such a comfort -there is something better coming!

 He will wipe every tear from their eyes, and there will be no more death or sorrow or crying or pain. All these things are gone forever.”

So we press on, we lean in, and we trust, all the while looking towards home.

Maranatha, Lord – come quickly.